"My Niki girl just turned 14. She is old and has many old lady issues. I watch her closely and know at some point I will have to make one of the hardest decisions for her. I just don't know when that is. I guess I am looking for some guidelines.
The good....she can still see and hear pretty good. She barks when I come into the house and will howl when I dance around. I think she enjoys that. She still likes to be with us when we work. Actually she just wants to be close to me so I drag her towel around wherever I am whether I am painting, gardening or cooking. She still eats, actually her appetite has increased. She doesn't cry or whine.
Here are her problems. She has a herniated disc for the past 4 years. Her back legs don't work so well anymore. She falls a lot and has trouble getting up. I help her up to get her steady. Once she is up she can wobble around. She has more accidents in the house...thankfully it is just pooping as the vet told me she can't really feel much in her back end. Luckily I or my DH is around most of the time so she is never stuck for long. Sadly if we are not around she could end up laying in her poo...and she is miserable. She stays in her bed most of the time and sleeps a lot. She cannot stand it if I am out of her sight. She barks a lot if I leave the room. She cannot make it through the night. I get up with her 1-2 times every night to let her out....although I am the same way, lol.
She just doesn't seem to be happy anymore which makes me really sad. For two years I thought it was close for her and I even told the nieces in NY to say good bye...just in case. So far Niki is hanging in there. She is just not happy anymore and her problems will not get better. When the weather breaks I will take her for some more car rides as she likes that....or she just likes the bone I give her in the car, lol.
Sorry for the long story. I guess I just know her time is close and I really don't want to "have" to do anything...but her quality of life kind of stinks. I'm just sad and kind of confused about what to do."
So that was on April 6 just two days after her 14th birthday. It was not happy times for my girl anymore.
THEN on April 11, 2017 I had to be the one to make the call. She fell on the side driveway and slid backwards. She was not able to stop herself and Mike had to jump off the roof to help her. I was up top. By the time I came down I doctored her scrapes and cuts as best I could and decided to wait the night to see how she did. She had another bad night and by morning I had Mike call the vet for me. I knew I would cry through the call. The vet was incredible. They told us to bring her in within the hour. We took Niki for her last ride and gave her a bone on the way down. She was not scared because she was familiar with the vet's office. I was able to hold her while she had her shot. I also held it together until she was gone and then I couldn't stop the crying. They gave us an Angel bag to take her home in.
Niki was born on April 4, 2003. We got her when she was 6 weeks old. I didn't pick her she picked me. I was sitting on the floor when all of Niki's siblings were all over. Niki was the one who kept coming back to me. She is the one who got to come home with us.
I'm glad her time came while we were in TN. I found a beautiful spot for her overlooking the valley:
And just some memories:
Rest in peace little girl. It is quiet on this new project without you...my little pug!!